SUCKS.

it sucks ok =.=

Kouhaku.. i have to record for my sis 'cause she's working but my mum wants to watch her show so i can't record or watch the beginning of the show for an hour.. i didnt get to see w-inds. and WaT's performance =.=

Then my sis came back from work.. kept blabbing around that she cant watch w-inds. or WaT or Mornig Musume or whatever.. eh hello? i didnt watch too ok? no need to be so noisy and being so irritating ok?!

This day start from evening my mood already destroy by my family!! UGHH!!! SUCKS!!! Always said that i always show THAT LOOK.. Oi, if there's no one make me angry i wouldn't be like that ok?!! Always said that i didnt think of other ppl.. u think u guys have meh?!! NO!! U guys never think how come i always like that!!! And still want to say that i'm selfish!!! Always say i ¶¥×ì!! HELLO?!! I very long time no do that already ok?!! still wan said that i'm still doing that?!! what's you're problem?!! Really hate to talk with u guys!! because whatever i asid u guys will say i ¶¥×ì!!! What's you're  problem now?!!! really hate to talk with you all!!! I'm trying to change, i mean, i DID changed BUT STILL U GUYS DIDN'T NOTICE!!! WHAT'S WRONG WITH U PPL!!!! I REALLY WANNA EXPLODE WHILE LISTENING U GUYS BLABBING!!!!! I WANTED TO SAY SOMETHING BUT EVERYTIME I SAID SOMETHING AND U GUYS WILL SAID THAT I ¶¥×ì SO I RATHER SHUT UP AND BE QUIET!!!

I always tried to calm down and think that those things that u guys said are all for my own good.. but sometimes.. you guys are just too much.. TOO MUCH OK?!!! I kept holding tried to calm down tried to be quiet tried to be not like before and all that.. but it's really suffering me... i kept holding those anger and it feel sucks ok..!!? i can't take this anymore...!!! I really wanna hit something!! Hit someone!! Hit the wall!! Kick the chairs!!! EVERYTHING!!!!
I didnt thought of this when i'm thinking another thing or being at another place.. but when u guys did these to me.. i really wish to die...!!!

I . had . enough .

My God.. someday i'm really going to explode if i can't take it anymore...!!! I really had enough of these...!!!