Wow.. haven't update this blog for a few months..! (well.. no one cares though..)

Well this is my last entry in blogdrive anyway..! Gonna change to another one..

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Finally I get to add a new blog entry! FINALLY!!
1. Been busy for SPM art project
2. Lazy
3. No time 'cause I move to a new house a month ago but it doesnt have the telephone line or gas etc, so if I want to online i have to go back to my previous house =_=|||
4. I wanted to blog after my drama performance end.

And few days ago it ended, means it time to blog everything after the last entry i added few months ago.. I hope i won't be writing too much without realising..lll
Well there're many things happened during these months ago, so.. I'll just separate them into a few chapters!

Chap 1 - Friendships thingy
Chap 2 - School life *the balance of ARTz*
Chap 3 - Family
Chap 4 - Drama life and Milkygreen
Chap 5 - X Japan + hide
Chap 6 - Me, my life and some craps

 

Game START!!

 

 

Chap 1 - Friendship thingy

Few months ago me and the other 3 of my friends had a friendship problem, and it last for about 2 months.. Well, the problem it's kinda small, but it's also big? ugh I don't know.. It's kinda complicated..? It's about thoughts.. again.. One of them is being to negative and we came up with some misunderstood.. and lost a friend for 2 months.. I never thought that this would end,  I mean, I never thought that this friendship would recover again..!

Those days I'm kinda sad, mad and disappointed at that friend of mine (A) 'cause she's just too negative! But.. think about it again.. she a friend that I knew since primary standard 1.. more than 10 years of friendship! I cant believe this friendship would just end like this!

Then left the 3 of us.. I'm not really used to it 'cause I'm not that familiar with one of them (C) comparing to the friend i just lost and the other one (B).. I really wish everything would be back to normal, just like before..! I'm really tired of it..
Until that day on my birthday, my classmates gave me a small surprise celebration.. B made me a handmade card with some wishes from my classmates, A wrote it too.. Before this I don't dare to talk with her again 'cause who knows what will happen? Maybe it's going to be worse? But since then I started to talk to her again because of that wish/message, I know that she's ok now..

And now, we're friends again! 3 of us (me, A and B)! C.. she's still mad at her, and A still mad at her too.. Ugh.. it's complicated.. but I'm glad it's all over on me..!

 

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Chap 2 - School life *the balance of ARTz*

Well, this year is the last year of my secondary school life.

Since we started to stay back at school to do our art project for SPM, the relationship with my classmates are getting better than before =D Although it's not very close, but still, I'm happy about it =D
Our class it's not a class full of smart or good students, some of them have a lot of discipline probs, some of them are nice.. We're all different, but still, we are one..! (omg that's so lame!!) But I really love this class, they're all crazy!! LOL

Hm.. I really hope all of us will be closer 'cause it's the last year! And.. we're the last ART class in our school..! We're gonna be history!!! LOL

 

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Chap 3 - Family

They're the best family in the world and no one can replace them =D

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Chap 4 - Drama life and Milkygreen

Chinese Society Farewell

Hmm... Milkygreen.. I stopped attending to drama lesson start from.. April?

Ok, before that, we planned to have a drama performance again this year.. Actually I dont really wanted to this.. but most of them want to.. so.. ok..

Later then, our drama teacher wants us to write a drama each and everyone.. As a result, me and Carin's are chosen.. I was kinda happy but.. I felt kinda stressed suddenly.. I wrote the scrpit for a few days, chosen my actors and i finished it finally..! I was really excited to lend them the scrpit and started to practise!

Meiyee(my senior), QingTian and KaedE

We started practise in April every Monday, but I had problems with the scrpits and all that, so... these 4 days were wasted... Then I changed all the scripts..
I'm really stressed that month, so I decided to... "quit" drama....? Without any second thoughts... You know what? I actually felt really relax after I "quit" drama! I used to can't live without it! But now..? hmm..

Posters

Anyway, during the holidays in May, things are going well~ I'm more relax too! 'Cause I dont have to worry so much about it anymore.. But.. since I stopped attending drama lessons, my relationship with Milkygreen member are getting further.. except for my actors.. They're getting weirder..! Everyone changed including me... I can't get along with them anymore.. the only thing I can be happy with "Milkygreen" is when I'm practising the drama with my actors...

Me and my actors+actresses and poster

After the final performance

25 July and 1st August is the days of our performance.. I'm really happy of my my actors' appearance and my drama! I'm really glad I chosen them as my actors! The audience reaction.. I really happy about it..! During the show is running, I'm kinda nervous though D= ....

After the performance, our teacher asked us to form a big circle and sit on the floor.. It's been a long time I didnt formed a circle with them... my feeling is really complicated..! But I tried to control my feelings... 

I love this shot LOL

But our teacher wants us to say out our feelings! At first I dont want to say it out, just listen to the others, but.. this is the last day, last chance to say my feeling out..! But I just say a little 'cause there're too much to say if I want to say..

My juniors.. which they're not familiar with me..

Btw, after I went home that day, I'm sad/regret about something! When I hug all of them, I've forgotten to hug my drama teacher and Carin and some of the others!!! I didnt noticed it 'cause I'm too frustrated!! NOOOO!!! *dies* 

Milkygreen.. a place that I have a lot of good, happy, sad, bad, touch memories.. I'm going to leave it soon..? I really hated them.. but there're so many nice memories with them...! A LOT!! Drama lessons, recess, drama practise, school drama performances, drama competitions, drama camp etc etc... I really wanted to go to the drama camp again.. but... in the same time.. I don't..
I used to swear to myself I wont be leaving/stopping drama before I graduate from high school, but.... (this shows that swearing doesnt last long 'cause our thoughts are keep changing..|||)
Well at least I took quite many photos of them as memories..

Drama acting/Milkygreen started to disappear in my view..! It wont disappear, but not that important anymore... There're many other thing that are more important than it...

Ughh whatever.. no one cares even I'm there..!

...Well it's very hard to describe the feelings in there, only ourselves who're in there knew it though..

P/s: I sad because my sis didnt attend the performance... D=

So long Milkygreen..

 

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Chap 5 - X Japan + hide

Me and my sis' collection (most of them are hers..)

MINE!!!

I'm still addicted to hide and X Japan! Yay! XD

Hmm.. I wonder how's Yoshiki's neck and knees and wrist? Hope he's getting better..!
Toshi! He's still cute with his teeth! XD
Pata! Cat!! XD
Heath! Skinny like a stick!! =X
hide!...... where is he..?

Oh yea.. he's.. gone.. dead... for more than 10 years..!

The 10th Anniversary Memorial Summit of his death in May.. I love his performance with Spread Beavers and X..! Is he really dead.. for 10 years..!? I'm still thinking about this.. I still think he's alive sometimes.. I know it's stupid! But It's just so weird... He really doesnt look like from the 80s/90s..!
Hmm.. hide with Zilch.. actually their songs are nice too, BUT the lyrics are disgusting..ll||l And I dont like that "Electric Cucumber" song because it's REALLY disgusting and the hide in the PV is.. creepy... T_____T

hide BIBLE is out few days ago!! I'm so sad 'cause Kinokunya dont have it.. =( Maybe it's still not in stock? Maybe later? But I cant wait anymore!! I'm gonna buy it from YesAsia! XD I GOTTA HAVE IT!!!

X Japan..! I wanna go to their concert!! DX But Yoshiki.. Poor hime.. D=

 

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Chap 6 - Me, my life and some craps

Hmm.. this "chapter".. there's not much to talk about it now actually.. Just.. my studies... and some other things like some special days or something~

Less than 3 months left and it's time for SPM!!! NOOOOOO!!!! Why can't I be concentrate to study?!! I gotta have more than 4 or 5 A s and the lowest grade would be C or D!! (NOT Malay, English, Art!) I gotta achieve my dreams!!!

Talking about my dreams... I found out that I love Fine Art more than Graphic or illustration... maybe I'll take that course.. I DONT CARE whether it has no future or what, I just love it..!! So what?!

Fine art, photography, hair styling, make-up, music, rock band...!!! Most of the things I love have no future in this country..! UGHH!!!

Rock band.. I wanna save money to buy my first electric guitar!! But... hide BIBLE, X JAPAN Memorial Photobook, X Rose & Blood Tour Photobook.. There're a lot of things I haven buy!! After SPM, I'm gonna start to find a job, save the money to buy my first electric guitar!! And I gotta buy a Fernandes Burny too!!! ROAARRR!!!! Then I'm gonna learn it myself!
Next, if my trial exam is good, I can go to college immediately! Yay!!....|||

Oh ya! My birthday is in June, and it's the best birthday I had ever had for now!
I celebrated it with my family just as usual. We went to the Subang Sheraton Hotel to eat some buffet (we got free coupon =D), it's not really grand or what, but I just love to celebrate with them.. I can't think what my birthday withoput my family will be like.. for me it's just so sad.. D= And guess what my sis bought me?? A hide PLUSH DOLL!!!!

I'm so shocked when I saw it!! Well before she give it to me I was having a bad mood because I can't find my things (we just moved and havent unpack all the things).. After my sis gave it to me, I opened it and saw a hide picture, under it I saw some red hair... o____________o??!!!! I stunned for a few seconds, later then my tears BURST out!!! SO FREAKIN HAPPY U KNOW?!!! IT'S A hide DOLL!!!! I can't believe it's happening right now!!! It's so freakin expensive u know?! But my sis bought it for me!! DX She's the worst and the best sis in the world!! X3
I still can't believe that I own a hide doll now!!

Ok.. because of the hide doll, the next day I had a great mood! LOL! Then I noticed that my friends were acting a bit weird, and I knew that there would be something happen later.. but I didnt bother about it 'cause later it will happen too. After school, my classmates gave my a small surprise belated celebration! I was so happy 'cause I'm with my classmates..!

Birthday cake from my classmates~

Ugh I dont know how to say..||| It's a very happy birthday to me..! Since I went to sencondary school, not much people know/remember about my birthday.. Last year my friends gave me a small surprise too (I knew it too), that's the first time I celebrated with my friends.. This year.. is even better...!!

 

 

Next!! Bon Odori!
I went with my sis~ I went there having a bad mood because of the yukata! IT'S SO HARD TO WEAR IT!!!

This is the first time I went to Bon Odori, I can't believe there're so many ppl there!! CRAZY!! It's so funny 'cause when we just arrive, a group of girls (i think their age is about 13~16?) came to us and wanted to take photo with us! Guess what? They thought we're Japanese!! LOL =X It's just so funny that moment! I know it's bad laugh about it.. but.. wearing a yukata doesnt mean we ARE Japanese..!

Bought ice-cream and iced milo~ I LOVE ICED MILO!!! X3 It's kinda bored there and my obi is getting loose =___+||| But I love to dance with all of them during the traditional/culture dance session! XD
Oh ya, I met some of my schoolmates btw D= So swt..ll|

 

Hmm.. My hair looks brownish...!

My sis graduation!!
Finally she graduated from diploma! I'm kinda angry 'cause she don't like the blue roses I bought for her!! D:< I knew she like lilies (izit lilies? I forgot what it called in english o__o|||), but when I saw blue roses I thought she want the blue roses more because she likes it too, they're pretty, Yoshiki like roses, in X Japan's song lyrics always have the word "blue rose"... But she didnt like it D=<
Anyway, later then I only knew that BLUE roses are fake...!! My sis told me that blue roses are actually white roses coverd with blue paint..!! I'M SO SAD 'CAUSE I DONT KNOW ABOUT IT!!! I thought there're such thing as BLUE rose!!! NOOO!!! Yoshiki!! You... you lie to me!! Your lyrics tricked me!!! D=

 

Ok! Now I'm going to show off my masterpiece!! LOL =X

My SPM art project (interior design - kitchen)

hide IN THE KITCHEN!!!

"Hello~ =D"

My handmade mini mini Fernandes Burny MG-145s

My handmade chocolate for X Japan and hide =D

(mirror effect)

My nailart

My drawings

Used to be a fan of AnCafe

My first hide drawing

hide with no face

Unfinished hide drawing.. weird.. but I like the hair LOL

Others

This is my drama's poster I made.. spent about 2 or 3 days to finish it..^w^

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Ok... i think that's the end...

Bye to blogdrive!!!

Next stop -

But it's still empty...ll||l

My God... I still can't believe that I "attended" X Japan's concert for the past 3 days!!! I just can't descrbe that feeling..!

28 Mar (first day of concert - Destruction Night)
After I watch my drama teacher's performance, I wanted to arrive home fast 'cause it's going to be 6pm! X Japan's concert starts at 6.30pm..! But even though I arrive home early I can't watch their concert too 'cause we can't watch it in Wowow too.. So after I bath and everything, I just go sleep(just awhile) 'cause it's tiring after I watched my drama teacher's performance and it's raining heavily and we have to walk through the rain to take the bus.. Suddenly my sis wake up up and told me there're live photos in the internet!! I'm so shock that I become so not tired like this --> -_- to this --> O__________O?!!! LOL!!
Although it's just some pictures but still I'm so shock and happy 'cause I didnt expected that I get to see them in the concert!! I can't believe I get to see those pics so fast!! And these concert pictures are not the conecert in the past 10 years... It's happening NOW!! LIVE!!! I really can't believe it!! And there're some pictures.. there's hide!! HOLOGRAM hide!!! There's hologram hide in the concert!!! MAN!!! SO HAPPY!!!
Later then, my sis even found there's someone posted the concert in Youtube(but it's already been removed)!!! We quickly download all of them!! After we finish downloaded them, we started to watch until about 4am!! =D
Cry while watching the concert 'cause we're watching a X JAPAN LIVE CONCERT!!! Not in 1997 or before that!! It's 2008!!! But Toshi voice changed a lot.. not powerful anymore.. not like "Toshi".. =(
As for hide's appearence...... he doesn't look like a person who was dead in the past 10 years... AT ALL!!!

29 Mar (second day of concert - Madness Night)
I thought we can't watch the concert live 'cause we get to go to our grandma's house in the evening.. At night after we reach home, my sis went to Youtube immediately to search if there's anyone upload the second concert!! And she did! But only two - "Kurenai" and "Tears".. But.... the feeling is really different!! Because... Toshi's voice is back!!! Toshi is back!! He can "scream" now!!! OMG!!! So happy..!! And in "Kurenai"... i mean their every "kurenai" performance in their previous concerts, hide would shout "tobe tobe tobe~~~~!!!" (fly), this time... hide did shouted too!!! I thoguht about that before (about would hide appear to shout this thing..?) So happy....!

30 Mar (third/last day of concert - Creation Night)
This day.. is the BEST and HAPPIEST day...!!! We get to listen/watch the concert LIVE!!! And Toshi's voice is so beautiful and powerful..!! Toshi is back..!!
There's hide's performance(hide no Heya)! Happy~~!!!! XD Oh ya!! At the end Yoshiki brought out a GIANT hide doll!!! I WANT IT!!!!!!!!!
The best concert I've ever saw....

Ughh!! There's so much to write but i dunno how to write!!! So I dun wanna write anymore!! LOL!!

Anyway, I still can't believe I watched X JAPAN's concert LIVE!!! I can't believe X JAPAN "exist"!! Usually those concerts, clips and performance we watch are from the past 10 years, but this...!! year 2008!!!!
And... hide is "NOT" dead...!!

MY GOD!!!

Hmm.. Yesterday went out with my sis! First we went karaoke.. hmm.. this is the first time that i actually wanted to go karaoke.. My friends always asked me to but I always ignore 'cause.. all of them sing mandarin, cantonese and english songs! Which I don't listen to! I don't like chinese and cantonese songs eventhough i'm a chinese myself... I think they're just boring and.. ugh whatever.. Anyway I just love Japanese s..D But this time is different, because it's with my sis! Most of the things we like are kinda same.. and I think that's good! =D
Another reason I wanted to go karaoke is because... my sis told me there're hide's songs!!! I'm sooo happy while singing hide's song!! But in the same time felt very sad too because.. he's dead.. .....

Ugh!! Stop thinking about hide's death already!

After karaoke, we went to the instrument shop.. I wanted to ask which electric guitar are more suitable for beginners and what's the price.. (so nervous!!) Then that guys from the shop show me a black Fender Stratocaster for about RM990! And it has 10% discount!  I think it's kinda cheap..! Of course I didn't buy it.. But I'll buy it next time!
But... RM990... it's about RM1000..! Am I really going to buy it..?! Now I only have RM360.. then my sis lend me RM250.. RM390 left! My sis is going to lend me more but thst seems kinda bad.. ... And after I buy it, i'll have no money to learn! maybe i'll learn it myself.. but i'll have to save my money all over again..! Ughhh!! And the discount is only for March!! NOOOO!!!
Am I going to buy it?? if i buy it i have to buy an amplifier too!! Need more money!! NOOO!!! 

.... whatever..

Then we went to Kinokuniya! to buy SHOCK WAVE INDEXX!! There's X JAPAN in it... 48 pages!!! and YAY hide!!! There're 10 pages of hide's pictures~! But i think it's still not enough... I want more pictures of X (especially hide!)!! T___T

.... hide... I STILL CAN'T BELIEVE HE'S DEAD!!!

I don't know whether the things i did was right or wrong.. but I've been trying to "correct" my friends.. i mean like.. trying to stop them from doing bad/negative things or stop them from saying foul languages/bad things.. and anything else.. like, just trying to stop them to become/being bad... am I doing this wrong..? I seem kinda irritating aren't I..? But i just don't want them to become bad.. they're my friends...

I'm really fed up to all of them.. I shouldn't been trying to do this from the beginning.. this week.. I'm really fed up..

Last week I saw one of my friends MSN personal message.. seems like she cut her wrist.. the next day, this Monday, I kept "searching" for the cut but i can't see it.. then in the class another friend of mine saw it, then I said I wanna see to.. I thought I was going to scold my friend or press her wound after i see it, but.. I came up to afraid.. I don't dare to see it.. when she let me see the wound, i just took a quick view and immediately put down my head on my bag that's on my desk.. 'cause my tears began to...... I just act like I don't dare to see it.. but actually I'm crying there.. I'm really... hurt? I don't know what's that feeling.. I just don't want to see my friends or anyone else do such things to themsleves..!
In the same day, another friend of mine said her body hurts because she sleep walked and got hurt.. I was like.. "=__=|||".. but later then she suddenly told me that she'll have this kind of "sickness" evry month... After listen what she just said, I was like.. ok.. so that's what she means... those hurts and wound... were made by herself.. she pinched herself......
The next day, ANOTHER friend of mine told me that she nearly do "stupid things" because those two did.. made her think wrongly too.......

Why won't they choose another better way to release their pain or anger? Why must they torture themselves..?! I just don't understand..! I'm just really... sad...?
Why won't they think positively.. I kept telling them to think positively but still...

I'm really tired of it.. I just trying to make them be good.. It's just useless that the few of us wrote diaries and let each other know what we've been thinking... really useless... 'cause it's all the same..
I thought finally I have this so-called "friendship group" thingy.. but... maybe because I'm too.. "nice"..? because I'm a girl that doesn't hate my family, hate negative things, not like them..? but I'm really glad I'm myself... I think..

Ughh!! I'm so frustrated right now!! Is it really because of my personalities that made me can't have VERY CLOSE friends?? maybe it's also because NO ONE have the same interest with me in school... ......
Before this, erm.. before 2008 I kept saying that I don't want to graduate from high school so soon yet 'cause this year is the last year of studying in high school.. but now.. I really wish time will go faster... I wanna leave this crappy school.. I want holiday.. I want to achieve my dream(s)..! but I have to earn some money first before achieving them..

My dreams.. Graphic designer/illustrator.. hair stylist.. make-up artist.. photographer.. GUITARIST....
Last time me and my sis decided to form a band.. without knowing any intruments.. I just know a little bit acoustic guitar..
... now i really want to own an electric guitar(and also learn it of course)..!! But it's so freakin' expensive.. hope there're some nice but cheaper ones.. I wanna be like hide..

Before hide, the one that inspired me to learn guitar was Hisashi(from GLAY).. he was so cool..! I join the school's guitar club.. bought a stupid acoustic guitar for RM480 (that was like so freakin' expensive but those days i don't know!).. I thought it's going well learning it.. but NO!! The teacher teach us freakin' slow!! We just learnt a few chords..! So in the end of the year I quit.. can't take it anymore and it's wasting money (although it's not my money.. but those days my parent were having finacial prob..)
After that, I've stop touching my guitar for like... erm.. I think 2~3 years? or maybe 4 years? whatever.. but sometimes(start from last year) I'll take it out to play again 'cause I'm bored *__*|||

Until the end of last year, November... I started to admire hide..! He looks so cool !! Cooler than Hisashi!! =X When watching him playing his Fernandes Burny guitars... it inspires me again.. to learn guitar..!! ELECTRIC guitar!! There're many things I admire about him! He has his own style.. that's so nice..! I don't really like him in Zilch though.. 'cause I think it's kinda.. disgusting? o__o||||||| but still.. I like him! His style are so different than others..! His songs have many different types and that was like.. so cool..! Some of his songs are kinda weird but in the same time it's nice too!!

But... why he died..?

8 weeks left to his 10th Memorial Day... hmm... hide MUSEUM... why it closed..? I really wish to visit it... and also his grave..!
...I still can't believe he's dead.. for almost 10 years!! He doesn't looks like from the 90's AT ALL... so are his songs..!

Talking about hide, X's concert is coming soon..!! ... really wish to go..! *sigh...* X reunion... is it a good thing..? only the 4 of them.. without hide... every time I watch the "I..V." PV... feel so down.. they look kinda sad too.. without hide.. the band must be very quiet.. 'cause hide was like.. the "entertainer"/"joker" of the band...!
The coming concert.. I wonder how it's going to be like..?

Hmm..  Now the school holidays started, the holiday is about a week..! Can't wait to go out with my sis again~! We're going to Kinokuniya to see whether there're any magazines that is related with hide or X~!! Then we're going to have karaoke to sing hide and X's songs! (but it's so stupid 'cause the PV of those songs are non-related to them! hmmp!) Then I'm going to ask the price of the electric guitar~~ can't wait to know the price! I mean.. can't wait to BUY it!!!

My God.. I typed so many things already?! I didn't even noticed that! I'll stop here anyway..! Bye~!

Wooo~ today is a special day! Know what special?

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Actually there's nothing special.. it's 29 February.. every 4 years only have one 29 Feb.. so it's special la..|||

 

oh ya, yesterday i said that i watch hide's TV Documentary... watch until cry ahhh!!!! he's like.. such a nice person.. i mean really a NICE guy..!! although he's a bit weird and crazy and hentai or like a joker(he was like X Japan's Joker!!), but he care so much about his fans!!!!

SEE!!! Why would a person so nice just die like that...?!!! why all the good ones have to die so early!!! that so unfair!!! T___________T

HIDE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! T___________T

 

*ehem* ok...next topic..

today is friday, that means got drama lesson.... last time our teacher asked the few of us seniors do a drama director report(swt dunno how to say la).. and... me and Carin's "story" have been chosen to perform in this year's performance....
I dunno whether i'm more to happy or what.. happy bcoz i have a chance, and mine have been chosen, means it's quite not bad.. but in the other hand.. i think is abit rush...!! ughh whatever!!

i'll stop here anyway!

heh! long time didnt update this blog!! nth to do so just update for fun~
today finished the first semester monthly test.. hope i get better results than last time.. (yay~ my english paper is the highest mark in my class!! 27/30~~ weheh!! =X)

anyway.. i'm still in love with hide and X Japan! wooo~
X Japan's Tokyo Dome concert.. really wish to go...!!! but i got no money..!! but now even i have money or not i also can't go 'cause all the tickets were sold out!!! but.. i dun really want to go too because... it's not the same X Japan... without hide... =(

ugh now watching at hide's TV Documentary until cry!! why he died...?!! why he want to drink alcohol!!! ughghhgh!!! he just going to start be famous but then suddenly died..!!
before this in my room while i'm doing my thing in my room and listening to hide's song, and when i started to sing, suddenly felt very down and stop singing.. why he just die like that...?? and he doesnt look like from the 90s..!! still look alive..!!

wghhh!! hide!!! X__________X

now i'm saving money to buy an electric guitar btw.. i wanna learn electric guitar..!! and drums.. and bass.. and also piano o____o|||| i wanna learn!!! have to save many money but dunno save until when!! $%#$%#^

oh well..

heh.. going to write about X again!!

the PV of their new song/SAW IV's ost - I.V. had released!! Here's the PV!!

YAY~!!! XD

But.. it's really sad.. without HIDE.... although the lyrics is kinda "scary", but... the melody sounds so sad.. plus, they kept shooting HIDE's guitar and performance.... THAT'S VERY SAD OK?!! T____T but still.. happy for that =) (i mean.. they put HIDE in the PV la... SWT what am i saying?! of course must have HIDE laa!!)

hmm.. dunno when will their single release..?? There will be that song that YOSHIKI wrote for HIDE "Without You" in the single... dunno whether will the single release in Malaysia?? I hope it will... >___<

 

OK!! Time for other X performance!!! =X
(i dun care!! i just wanna post!!!)

Celebration (Live)

 

Kurenai Live TV

 

DAHLIA (1996/2/9 TV appearence)

 

Kurenai Kouhaku live

(you would never see any kouhaku performance now.. ever!)

 

Kurenai PV

 

DAHLIA (January 26 1996 POP JAM)

 

Ok la enough already...ll|

*sigh* i really loveeeeeeeee HIDE's style!! He was so funny and his style are always the most outstanding one!! The Kouhaku's look..!! His clothes looks like rubbish but dunno why it looks so nice on him! and his hair!! (although some are fake hair la..) but his hair still looks so nice!!! ARGH!! how come he's so pretty?!!

 

eleh... now my sis also love X too.. but she love YOSHIKI noy HIDE, i love HIDE ^^
haih.. now only love X ah..? so late.. (i mean late than me la)

hmm.. now i cant decide which is the better guitarist!! HIDE or Hisashi?!! o___o||||
HIDE is a great musician/guitarist/performer/entertainer, Hisa is a great guitarist.....||||| NOOOOOO!!!!

Anyway.. either there're many famous young visual jrock band, X will always be the greatest!!!

Hmm.. although yeaterday was Saturday, but still we have to go to skool for the replacement of chinese new year holiday..
One word.. BORING... and dunno why no mood tired and sleepy.. ugh whatever la..

Really "lazy".. i mean.. dun "dare"/dun want to say out my thoughts to them now.. coz the things i say.. they'll be ignoring... like sometimes i wanted to talk about ZunKong camp.. i wanted to tell them how fun and how memoriable it is.. but.. they will just like.. dun want to hear.. i mean.. act like they hear nth... then.. i felt that.. most of our thoughts are.. different.. really different.. dunno how to say la.. like some of the topics that they say.. i dun really like too much 'bout it.. just want to know a bit la.. but dun want to know too much.. coz i dun want to split too much.. like last year.. those two mistakes... are the same.. i was just trying to solve the problem, but.. it became worst... i really had enough.. i had enough of these lessons.. and i'll wont be doing the same thing again and again... it's really suffering..!
I dun want to say out more, dun want to know more.. i rather be quiet more than splitting out/know more about those things..!

After skool.. went back home --> bath etc --> choose clothes that i wanted to wear to the ADA Drama Award!! --> tuition =.=||| i didnt get to take a nap!! T__T

*skip the tuition*

 

OK!! The award ceremony!! Waseh.. those ppl ah.. wear so.. err.. nice? and all with makeup... i didnt wear any make up!! but i think i already look cool without make up =X wear like Ah Cat! =X
Then i saw PeiLi!! then Wetwet!! Hmm.. la ma ke.. still miss them!! But just the 3 of us attended.. =( (feel quite uncomfortable coz i dun usually wear so "formal" =.=||)
So sad la.. coz the other skools many attended.. but our skool.. just me and Carin =.=|||
Then, me and Carin kept acting stupid while watching the TV in a room that was playing those culture/tradisional stuffs.. kept making sound effect for them!! ... so no manners...||| 

*fast forward*

ok... the "red carpet" time!! (LOL) Saw Frankie laoshi!! His hair.. i like the previous one before he cut it.. =( Then also saw YuHong!! Means there're 5 La Ma Ke members(include Frankie laoshi) attended this ceremony!! >___<
Oh ya! as for my camp group frens of the year before last year aka Lai Duo, YuHong(again) and Pei Fun attended!! And one more.. DunXian!! Our LaiDuo group leader!! Long time no see lor!! So shock to see him attend! (but i didnt act stupid or what la.. just "eh? DunXian..!" la..) Waa.. really long time no see lor.. 1 year++! And he's from Penang, hard to meet him back 1 leh..!

So "wahh" la all TEA members!! All green in colour!! all look soooo nice!! Lol Milo laoshi looks very "liong"!! Tammy laoshi..!! Love her look the most!! So COOL!!! Eva laoshi very nice also~! Her high heel shoes are GREEN!! Amelia laoshi and Yong Chang laoshi wear indian look! Eve laoshi cut her hair already! looks nice!! Other teachers also look nice!!! X3 X3
Of course not only TEA Theatre attend la! Other theatre group also attended like PingStage, Noise Performance House etc.. But all are chinese drama groups la, coz this award is chinese drama award la..
Some of the host and DJ etc of our country also attended!! Like the Astro show E-ha! 's host Si Yi..! I dun even recognise it was her!!

*fast forwarddd*

*the stage*

Before the award starts, those who gave the speech... waa... so long la... But some of the things they said quite "awww X3 T__T".. and the first one who gave the speech!! So funny+ cute!! XD (not the looks la)

Then, the opening ceremony performance by TEA TEENS 3 and PTG!!

 

 

*ehem..* i know the quality is very... cheap.. but my dad took the camera to penang already.. so i use my phone to take... (I WANT A CAMERA!!!! A PROFESSIONAL CAMERA!!)
anyway, their performance of course.. NICE!!

OK FAST FORWARD LAAA!!!

The last award is "Best Drama".. So shock and happy coz TEA got it!!

  
LOL the one on the right so small =.=

Group pic (not include the audience of course) =.=

haih... stupid quality...

Anyway, really glad that Tea got some awards!

The results:

1 Best Drama£º ³¤ÎݼÙÆÚ -TEA ¾ç³¡ 
2 Best Director£º Áõ½õ¿µ [³¤ÎݼÙÆÚ]
3 Best Original Script£º ÀîÓÀÇ¿£¬Çñ·çÄþ£¬»Æ¹úÕý£¬½­°î»Û  [³¤ÎݼÙÆÚ]
4 Best Actor£º ÀȺ [ÎÒµÄÊ®ÎåÏñÄñÒ»Ñù²»»ØÀ´]
5 Best Actress  £º ³Â²ÊÕä [°¥Ñ½Ñ½´óÈÎÎñ]
6 Best Supporting Actor£º ¬¿¡´Ï [ÎÒµÄÊ®ÎåÏñÄñÒ»Ñù²»»ØÀ´]
7 Best Supporting Actress£º ÁÖ¶¬»Ô [°¥Ñ½Ñ½´óÈÎÎñ]
8 Best New Artiste£º ÀȺ [ÎÒµÄÊ®ÎåÏñÄñÒ»Ñù²»»ØÀ´]
9 Best Set Design£º Àî³ÐÔË [°¥Ñ½Ñ½´óÈÎÎñ]
10 Best Costume£º Àî³ÐÔË  [°¥Ñ½Ñ½´óÈÎÎñ]
11 Best Lighting Design£º »ÆÕñÒµ [ÎÒµÄÊ®ÎåÏñÄñÒ»Ñù²»»ØÀ´]
12 Best Original Music£º ¬ѩºº£¬ÅËÇïè룬³Â»ÛÄÝ£¬Áõ¼ÒÈÙ£¬Àîºñѧ£¬ÀîÓÀ²ý[³¤ÎݼÙÆÚ]
13 Best Printed Material Design £º Àî³ÐÔË  [°¥Ñ½Ñ½´óÈÎÎñ]
14 Äê¶È×î¼ÑÕûÌåÑݳö£º Ê®  [The Actors Studio & Noise Performance House]
15.ÍøÂç×îÊÜ»¶Ó­Ï·¾ç :  ³¤ÎݼÙÆÚ

(TEA got 1, 2, 3, 12,15~!)

Really shock when Best Costume, Best Set Design, and Best Printed Material Design are not TEA Theatre!! o___o||| because i really love their stage, costume and booklet..! maybe that group really better than them..? o__o||| oh well~

I'm kinda sad after the award finish// coz i didnt get to take pictures with PeiLi, Wetwet, YuHong and Frankie laoshi.. (and Milo laoshi la) but Milo can see him many times mar.. but La Ma Ke.. not the same...PeiLi want go back like that already.. Wetwet already went back.. YuHong dunno go where already.. Frankie laoshi go gather diudnt come out of the hall... sigh...
As for Lai Duo.. also the same.. =(

Sigh... maybe the next time La Ma Ke will meet at Jia Dong skool's performance? PeiLi is going to perfom!! Cant wait for another day to meet La Ma Ke members...!!

11 January *|[the first unhappy day of 2008]||

Hmm.. start from the first day of skool, i've been trying to be happy as possible.. i dun want to think too much, make myself too much to think, know my frens' problems TOO much, make others "mm song" or "mm song" others etc etc.. 'cause those things.. now i think is those are wasting my thought's energy(?).. tired of that..
from the first day of skool, the most of the time i kept laughing.. just happy.. after skool also go back home happily..
but this day.. just because of "sing k" this thing.. makes me... ughh.. dunno how to say la.. bcoz today is yvonne's bday, so they plan to go out.. at first they say go to Steven's Corner or Station 1.. then suddenly say wan to go sing k or what.. then.. i dun wan to go.. 'cause i hate it.. then.. alah.. dunno how to say la.. all of them wan to go except me.. bcoz of me they cant go..
i hate sing k.. not only because i dun like it and it's expensive.. every time i went there i wont be happy.. i dun like those environment..
but then cancel everything already coz yvonne's mum dun let her go..

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Today.. went to Lion Dance meeting... i can't believe i attended this meeting... 'cause i judt decided to quit..! I told Yenting that i just attend this meeting but wont come back to practise anymore.. then ngdehdeyu.... (fast forward)... actually i come just to help for the Hari Orentasi since i cant come back.... dunno la... so confuse that moment..! Then "Choi Gor" them say the things.. makes me really wan to stay..! i really want to learn those drums(this is not those band's drum set la)..!
dunno la... i wan to go back... and... there're only left about 5 or < thsn 5 girls members only.. So.. on hari orentasi... must get more girl members to join Lion Dance!! and... get more boy members to join drama(less boys la.. T__T)!!

hmm.. maybe i'll discuss with my mum again one day.. 'cause my schedule.. quite ok.. i think wont disturb my studies for SPM...?

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HIDE time!!!

Hmm.. i found out that all of the X members.. their names are now all in capital letters!! dunno whether is correct or not la.. but i'll write in in capital letters too then~

Last week finally watched that movie "Seth et Holth" starring HIDE and TUSK!! One comment for HIDE.... HE IS SOOOO PRETTYY!!!!!! X3!!!
I dun really understand the whole story but i did search for wiki and other infos of this clip.. their imagination kinda good LOL and.. got some parts it's very disgusting/scary.. some is weird.. the ending there, where Seth and Holth kena tangkap by human... nearly cry(LOL)!!
Hmm... one comment for this movie... yappari an artistic film (=_=)b waseh.. HIDE is really an "artistic person" la!! cool!! o__oll|

 

ok.. i'll stop here then~

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Hmm.. last Thursday (Jan 3) school starts! I thought i'm going to sleep in class again (plus i didnt sleep well the day before that), but i didnt!! o__o|||

It's not so bad 'cause i kinda had a great day.. but in class we didnt sit in the same place like last year 'cause some of them dun want to = but then it's not so bad la
Our guru simpanan is Puan Mas (Maths teacher).. she's very nice =D and our last year's BC teacher teach us again! but this year she teach us moral.. but that's good 'cause she still teach us!! and other classes teach by lee ooi peng..!! My God!! But she teach us PJ la.. so swt.. =O
Our class shirt! Football jersey~~ so happy that most of them agreed this idea =D

I still love the time while recess, 'cause i get to be crazy with Milkygreen again!! Me, Carin, and SiYang kept saying the "jampi" before meal during the camp be fore we eat XD

Hmm... on Friday after skool we have a meeting of some performance of hari orentasi and chinese week in skool.. the hari orentasi performance i'm just the "os".. so.. no need stay at skool to practise or what la.. but the chinese week perfomance... i beh tahan say i wanna perform too (especially because the performance is non-logic performance!! XD)!! But.. have to stay in skool to practise after skool... i dunno how to stay late in skool for practise because i promised my mum i wont perofrm anymore... maybe just stay to practise for some day..? Hmm dunno la.. anyway i just want to perform...!!! .... can't wait for that day!! X3

 

Last night in msn.. yenting asked me whether i got go to lion dance practise or not.. i said i wont... then she say what many ppl dun wan to go.. ask me izit because i want to sleep(have to wake up early) then i say "hehe..^^||||".. and i haven confirm whether i'll go back to lion dance or what.. and she said (continued last night) what, if those drama members sometimes attend the lesson sometimes didnt, what would i think.. then because my sis want to us the pc so i just sign out...

After that i told my mum that girls can join lion dance already (i haven told my mum about this).. she asked me i wan to join back ah? i said i dunno.. then she asked me to aim for Dasein.. dun join too may activities..
....... then i confirm liao.. i wont go back to lion dance.. i already very lucky that my mum still let me stay in drama.. now one more activity..? no..

there're some other reasons that i dun really wan to stay in lion dance...
1. always creating fake rumors
2. always have many problems
3. most of the members.. they're thoughts are not mature.. dun think of others..
4. most of them use foul languages... =.=|||||||

just now i signed in again.. she said what(continued last night), if we dun wan go then suan liao.. then i forgot what she say la..
well.. ok.. i'm quiting anyway.. she wan think i leave because i want to sleep or what also whatever la..

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ok!! non-skool-related topic!! (aiyah.. X and hide again la..)

my God!! finally i get to listen those songs in Yoshiki's myspace!!! FINALLY!! Especially that song he wrote for hide after hide died (Without You) and X's new song "IV"!!!
"Without You".. sound so nice and.. sad... =( i still can't belive hide is was dead.. for about 10 years already!!! my God!! Man.... i wanted to download this song (actually just melody la)... BUT I CANT FIND ANY SITES THAT CAN LET ME DOWNLOAD IT!!!! NOOOO!!!!
Ok.. next.. "IV"!! Ooo.. i didnt know that this song is full english too *__* Toshi's voice.. still so... fuyoh.. hmm.. i think this song doesnt sound like X.. but still nice!!! But... when i thought of hide was dead...... WGHHH!!!! X withou hide was like... SO SAD!!!!! T_____T
OK NEXT!!! *sniff* there're two ver of "Tears" (X's song).. one is an unreleased ver, another one is their Tokyo Dome concert... the concert one.. the fans sing along with them.. so "awwww"....!! >___<
Can't wait for their new song release on 25!!

Last night search for hide in Youtube again =.=||| Found some tribute clip of hide and hide + Kami(Malice Mizer) from their fans..

Tribute to hide+Kami:

Song: Tears by X Japan

Tribute to hide

Song: Unnamed Song by Violet UK

The hide tribute's song is by Yoshiki's Violet UK.. nice right..? =D

*sigh*.. why do those great musicians always dies first..?! that's so..  not fair.. =(
Kami's death is more "logic".. but hide's death.. so swt!! If he was not drunk/didnt do anything/just go to sleep since he was drunk, he would be dead right now!! T__T

Then i searched for Seth et Holth, the movie starring hide and TUSK.. last night i just watched the forst part.. it was like... so... EWWW.... and i dun really understand =( But i can say... hide is REALLY PRETTY!!!
Now i'm going to watch part 2... X__X

 

err.. ok.. i'll stop here!